I have realized something yesterday, and that was the concept of the self and the other; my internal world versus what surrounds me.
In the middle of the day, I caught myself humming... I was so happy, yet I couldn't understand why, for I've always known myself to be gloomy and grumpy. Then it hit me; my mentality was different -- I have removed all of the day's obstacles and did my best to win over them. It wasn't that the day was light, nor was it because I had no disturbances, but it was about my own mindset -- I was able to see the beauty in every simplicity. Even though I've somehow altered it unconsciously, I still had that effect which made me stop and think whether I fell in love with someone or not. After all, wasn't that how love-stricken people were portrayed in the movies we so often watched?
However, I concluded, by the end, that it was never a matter of mindset, at least to me, because I've always been triggered by the external forces -- our 'oh so beloved' society. In the end, I've seen my humming transform into annoyed syllables, for society had always drained me. The self can only go as far as your capabilities, whereas the other unite all together to stomp on your most exciting days. Finally, leaving you with the memories of your friends, families, and loved ones.
In the middle of the day, I caught myself humming... I was so happy, yet I couldn't understand why, for I've always known myself to be gloomy and grumpy. Then it hit me; my mentality was different -- I have removed all of the day's obstacles and did my best to win over them. It wasn't that the day was light, nor was it because I had no disturbances, but it was about my own mindset -- I was able to see the beauty in every simplicity. Even though I've somehow altered it unconsciously, I still had that effect which made me stop and think whether I fell in love with someone or not. After all, wasn't that how love-stricken people were portrayed in the movies we so often watched?
However, I concluded, by the end, that it was never a matter of mindset, at least to me, because I've always been triggered by the external forces -- our 'oh so beloved' society. In the end, I've seen my humming transform into annoyed syllables, for society had always drained me. The self can only go as far as your capabilities, whereas the other unite all together to stomp on your most exciting days. Finally, leaving you with the memories of your friends, families, and loved ones.
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